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Always?

  Was I always this way? I can't say for sure, but I have one very specific memory that started a path of curiosity surrounding social-emotional learning. My first year in high school I sat in a lunchroom, the floor made of white tiles, the tables a dark blue color, and the doors a bright red. I was surrounded by people I called friend, and everyone was talking. I raised my volume, trying to get the attention of my friend across the table. She was talking at the same time. Suddenly I stopped speaking as the flash of realization hit.  No one was listening.  In fact, as I settled back on the bench, I realized that not a single one of my ten friends were listening to each other.  What would happen if I stopped talking?  I wondered, looking around. Her auburn hair swished as she gestured, the card in his hand moved as he shook it to make a point, her food sat forgotten on her plate as she laughed.  My teenager scientist mind was instantly curious, and that day ...

Tell Me

  Tell me. Tell me I will make it. Epic the musical fills my ears with the cries of ancient heroes fighting for their lives, and I press on. Before the best moments come the hardest challenges. My car, my rent, my time, my friends. It piles on, but still I push. I will make this happen, the very fact that it's hard makes it worth doing. I ignore the calls, trying my best to focus.  This will be worth it.  Tell me this will be worth it.

Spark

  A moment. An Idea. A spark. It's what I'm good at, what i've spent years focusing on.  I've dissected social situations, communication tactics, and my own emotions till they are laid out as if on a surgeons table. It's time to teach others how to do the same, those who find it harder to naturally fit in.  Kids, trying so hard to live life, not understanding why no one else sees what they see. Why no one else is as excited about that projects, that movie, that game. Now I can finally help them. I can finally DO something!  I get the feeling that something great is about to begin.